` beautiful and delicately made ; xX `

2006-11-02T19:52:00.000+08:00

Hokay. Today everything went well. Jln rayer AGAIN. Superb tauu. $$$ Haha. Kk followed that naz. Dh larh aku jadek tempat dier tumpang barang, kene pegang byk peranan, pas tu kau tau dh jadek postwoman bergerak. Tsk tsk. But i'm happy. Dh bleh bkak bank tauu. =))

But today ended up me being unhappy. I'm sorry if anything i told you hurt you and spoke to you about what i felt in that tone cause, i don't wish to be emotional and ended up break down there. =( I don't want a break up and, haish, things are hard. I knw. I'm sorry.

2006-11-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

I superb hate holidays. And worst, listening to Bayangan Gurauan made me miss him more and now, i miss those mornings when he would sang to me. ='(

2006-11-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

K gonna update based on yst jln rayer. =)

Yst jalan rayer with the ex keming students. Was effing fun + lots of laughter. But will be better klau tak uat hal. K first meet Ayul, Shu and Tisha pt bawa blok Ayul. Then off to bb mrt. Meet up with Neza. Waited for the "raja-raja". Fed up shey. Then went to Fiqah's house. Zufar, Shafiq and Haikal came. Ziqah was already there. We were all making fun of someone*. Hurhur. =) Then off to Ziqah's house. Duduk punyer larh lamer since it's raining. And gy Haikal's house. Was ketawe-ing with Shu all the way. Naz came. Ass. Skrg aru nk dtg. Then after they all solat went to Fiq's house. And a very BIG thanks to naz for carrying my handbeg ke mana2. Hurhur. K and otw nk gy Fiq's house, turun sala bus stop. Huargghh ! Bagidol btol. Me, Tisha, Ayul and Shu turun. Then diorang tak turun. Then the bus stop again and then aru diorang turun. Begap saak.

Had to walk a very superb LONG distance to Fiq's house. Sala bus stop perh. =.=" I wasn't really in the best mood at Fiq's house. Due to something*. Then jln lagek to Neza's house. And i can't take it. Kaki melecet like fuckk. 3 inch mind youu ! My toes were superb swollen. Besst ! Blablabla. Then went to Shu's house. Superb skejap as Naz kene lek cpat and he wanted to go to my house asap since dier lapar. =.=" After my house, uma Ayul. Was more superb skejap hokay ! Naz alek, gy uma Zufar. Now a superb BIG thanks to both Zufar and Fiq for overtaking Naz's job. =)) Then last house, uma my dearest Tina. Everybody was quite at Tina's house. Penat tauu. Otw alek, talik kasut putus. Fucck. Takper2. I still have my pump shoes which i wore only hhrrm, twice? in like half a year. Then dad pick us up. Balik tros pengsan ! ((:

Today had this stupid malay remedial. Ghaaa. Was superb tiring. I don't think i'm listening to what she's saying. Naseb skejap. Then blablabla tros alek.

I realised that me and them* were in two different world. Hurhur. At least i have him and her in my life and it's them that they don't have. ((:

I'm superr duperr tired. Take care.

ILOVEYOU

2006-10-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

I'm so not looking forward for school to reopen. Reason : I hate Bvss. I came to school for the sake of not getting deaf from being nagged at. And yea, two more pathetic years and i'm out. Please let the years pass by very quickly. Holiday assignments are killing me saak. Ss is killing me. Blom anything Ss holiday assignment dh dpt. Tell me how *insert all the bad words* the school is ?!! Huaarrgghh !

I know hating won't solve anything. But i can't help hating them*. How pathetic can they be. Memiang sini sana. *PUKESSSS* Nampak jerh decent tapik prangai, tsk tsk, hanya separuh org jerh yg tau. And i don't blame that dumbdumb for hating her. Haha. =) I don't think blogging gave me enough privacy tauu. Some unwanted ppl read my blog. I know he/she reads my blog. Cause he/she told me that he/she knows my blog. Pathetic ass.

I'm soo loving my cousins. =) and of course my dearest GongGONG. Nnti tak letak namer dier mrajok plak. And i have this sudden feeling, i wanna watch movie. I wanna watch DOA !! Saper2 nk blanja? Saper2 nk ikut? Anyone, anytwo, anythree? (: Anyway, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ABG HAFIZ. =))

2006-10-29T13:11:00.000+08:00

1e1'05/2e1'o6 is part of history. *SOBBSSSS* Left only memories of us. I will miss the, um, classroom larh !!

Rina is sucha ass. " Eh nabilah kau jgn ambek kaki. Aku nk jengkit uh. " Eh Rina, aku tau larh kau pendek. Haha. =)

Soo many memories lurh. Bad plus good one of course. ((: And i don't think the hair colour suits my skin tone. Another mistake. *puipuipui*

Yst Syahir and friends dtg rumah nk rayerr. Last minute. Tsk tsk. Ass larh he. Yst had lots of fun lurh. Open house larh katerkan. My dearest Qois Irfan is damn fucking cute cann ! And i found out something from myself. I shouldn't *dotsdotsdots* and i realise that *dotsdotsdots*.
Regret larh. Tsk tsk. )): Ghaaaa. I'm sorry. Anyway today was supposed to be the anni. Happy Anni GongGONG ! )':

2006-10-27T12:39:00.000+08:00

So damn happy. Things are bck to normal again. I know. My mistake.

Someone betrayed me larh. 2nd wife konon. Takper2. Haha. Booklist dh dpt. Kiasu sungguh uh. Holiday assign also. Tsk tsk. When can they give us a proper holiday without remedial and holiday assign or some stupid activities? During recess was fun. Me, Shu Li and Rina took stupid photos. ((: Nice nice. Will upload if i have the time.

K i've also got bck my report book. Lots of Bs and Cs. Only As for cme and music. Haha. Ok larh kirekan tuu. My conduct EXCELLENT youu ! ((: And got stupid comments. "Firm in upholding rules. Believe strongly in her own capabilities. Show pride in her duties. Polite in all situation." *PUKESSSSS* Haha. So the bedek hokay !! Show pride in duties? What duties? As a gf? CHET !! Abeh height 160 cm. Pendeknyerrrr akuu. Sedih ehh.

K goo. =) 2moredays*

2006-10-26T16:23:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of school which also happened to be the hurtest day in my whole entire life. It frigging hurts a lot. I will be damn frank here. You know, i put aside my ego to call you and hope that things will be alright, since i know guys are egoist. But then, putting aside my ego just hurts more. I don't even know if i have a place in your heart now. I don't even know how our relationship is like now. Ok or Ko, i freaking care ! You walk past me, just like that, and i thought, "am i a wall or something?" When i asked you what happen to us, you say i should asked myself. I don't even know what the freaking thing i should asked myself ! I cried my heart out and i think Rina's shirt should be wet. So you want to ignore this forever? You want to ignore ME? For how freaking long do you want me to just wait for you to even say "Hello"? Till i die? Till i'm more hurt than i am now? Till i have no hope? Till when? I thought you were different. But it turns out that you are just the same. I'm trying my very best not to drop my tears for you. I'm holding back and i believe i can. What? You found someone better? You found someone with better attidude than mine? Yes i know mine sucks. I knw i shouldn't be angry since you don't wish to go to school. You're tired. But is this the problem that causes this so-called cold war we're having now? I want you to come cause i miss you so damn fucking much and wanted to spend the remaining two days with you cause i somehow just knew it that i can't go out during holidays but in return, i didn't get to even here your voice. Tell me how fucking hurtful is that? I don't even know who to blame now. Me or you? I don't even know what's the real cause of this stupid cold war between us. You've once say, "we'll go through thick and thin together". And now what? Another thing, i thought you say she's irritating but yea, you send her testi. I don't know HOW am i gonna trust you or even believe you. I know this MIGHT be hurtful but saying this and having to go through this by myself is much more thousands millions time hurtful. And now i started to realise, i don't blame some girls who says "love suck", cause i know very well, it's true. I'm prepared for the worst that could happen(which i pray hard would not happen). I will get over this hurtful and undesire feeling.

some times i wanna call you
but i know you WON'T be there. ='(
I don't need symphaty. I need love.
I don't want you to read what i've just wrote
but i have no choice. I need a place to let go all this undesire feelings.

2006-10-26T05:23:00.000+08:00

Kk, just got back from school. I'm hating school and simply can't wait for school to end. Seriously, things are getting on my nerves. And i really really felt pissed over something and i think i need time by myself.

Pon-ing np. Yurp, who wants to go during rayer shey? Anyway, SLAMAT HARI RAYER. =)) Wanna say sorry to whoever or whatever i have offended. This sorry thingy only goes to MY FRIENDS, not that one, two or three.

Today some of us went to Woodlands Regional Library. Ok, guess who i saw? Haha. Shawn Lee !! OmFg. He is soo the superb cute ok ! I went like go-go-ga-ga. Haha. Dumb. Then went home. See? Boring kaaan? =.="

Now, jln rayer with ex "e sistaz" is on 1st November. 31st oct and 1st nov jln rayer. Omg. Bleh mati siaak. My heels is like 5 cm long ! Just the heel. Ass. Sakit shey. One day cannot tahan. And now 2-3 days. God, can i just die?

( i'm soo unhappy with you. Don't talk to me. I don't wish to talk to you. And if you're wondering who you are, you will know if i don't reply your msgs.)

Anyway, i got 2 missed call from someone in the past. I wanted to call her back. But i'm afraid she's calling the wrong person. Klau gituk paiseh uh. Haha. And yea, yst pics will be uploaded when i'm TOTALLY free.

2006-10-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

First and foremost,

HAPPY DEEPAVALI !! ((:

Kk i was so damn bored. Totally did nothing today. Can die ok ! Anyway, next week Hari Raye. Cepat nyerr kankankan?! Haha. And i'm not ready for rayer. Blom anything dh plan for jln rayer with budak Keming on the 31st of oct later. Hurhur. And yea, 2 more freaking fasting days and then, i swear i'm gonna party and smile !

The keying in of sec 3's class for next year have been forwarded to Monday. Good, so i have more time to think which class and what to take. I'm freaking confused myself k.History maybe? I'm gonna take Poa next year. Yurp with FnN, since mum says i need to study how to cook and be a real girl. Hhhrrm, haha can? And i'm frigging pissed. Malay holiday assignment is sucha ass, like the teacher, kankankan? Hmph !!

Nisa dye her hair red. Huargh ! So damn jealous k !! I want also cancancan? Pretty please? ((: